Seven years plus ago, SWPAS was born of frustration, like that early ’90s song. As I noted in my first post, I felt like somebody had to do something about the way the prequels were being perceived and treated. There were no sites quite like this one (though there have been PT-related fan sites for years) and very few fans who were outspoken about the PT.
The good news is that SWPAS is not the only game in town anymore and there are more people now who aren’t as shy about their support for the films. But has it gotten easier for any of us? Yes and no. People on various geek/nerd/comics/whatever sites who try to write anything even remotely positive about the films can still expect a gaggle of trolls and haters to fill up the comments with their bile. I’ve long said the obsessiveness of the haters outweighs the passion with which fans like us will defend the movies. A few people have commented negatively on that obsession but the internet, geek culture, and the media have fed off of it for too long. It’s everywhere.
I will admit that there have been many times when I’ve thought of quitting. Is SWPAS really making much of a difference or is it just flatulence in the wind? Taking on the hate machine can seem insurmountable and impossible. Fans can be very difficult to deal with sometimes and I don’t think very many people really understand where I am coming from. This is not a full-time job, it’s just something I do when I have the inspiration and the time. Even if this site was all about puppies, cupcakes, butterflies, and sunshine, there’s always the concern about keeping it fresh and not just phoning it in.
I want everyone to recognize that I don’t post inflammatory stuff just to stir the pot or as clickbait. I could sling red meat on here every day to keep up the numbers because controversy draws eyeballs. But I don’t do that, mostly because the focus here shouldn’t be on the latest jackhole to talk smack about the films, Lucas, or whatever. Now if that jackhole manages to get hired to write a Star Wars screenplay, that’s a different story. There’s a responsibility official fandom has to these films and to fans like us and when I don’t think they are living up to that responsibility, I’m going to say so.
It sounds like a cheesy cliché to say my readers drive me on, but there is truth to it. There’s a need for saga fans to feel accepted and validated and this is one of the few places where that can happen. The other thing is these movies and those who supported them were done a raw deal and that drives me crazy. Whether my Star Wars fandom fades over time or not, there’s a part of me that will never rest until that’s rectified. It sounds nuts but I’m being honest. Why else would anyone spend time on a site that doesn’t generate money or fame? I ain’t the Man Repeller or the Blonde Salad with magazine covers, big book deals, merchandising tie-ins, and freebies. I’m not even a big name fan.
It may be a quixotic quest but that’s my purpose in doing this site. Maybe one day I’ll walk from it for good. Maybe one day, I’ll realize my work here is done. But not today.